Melihat dedaun gugur satu persatu,
dingin yang menggigit diriku
membawa aku menyingkap kisah lalu
ada tawa ada tangis
setiap satunya bermakna
buat insan sedaif aku
Pernah aku tersasar jauh
menyelusuri liku-liku gelap
sehalus cahaya tak ku temui
namun,
kerana Ar-Rahman,
belasNya, kasihNya padaku
ku dengar sayup suara memanggil namaku
menarik ku semula
balik ke pangkal jalan
jalan menuju keredhaan Ilalhi
terima kasih, Ya Rabb
atas kesempatan itu.
Aku tahu dan sedar,
bahwa imanku ibarat air laut
ada pasang dan surutnya..
Tapi,
Kau pastikan aku tak pernah jauh dariMu
Kau dekatkan aku dengan mereka yang sentiasa mencintaiMu
membuatkan aku tertunduk malu
muhasabah semula diri ini.
Sewajarnya aku bersyukur
atas apa jua dugaan yang hinggap pada diriku,
tanda ingatanMu khusus untuk diriku
kerna Kau berfirman,
"Apakah manusia mengira bahwa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, 'kami telah beriman' dan mereka tidak diuji?" Al-Ankabut 29: 2
Palmy
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
27-28.03.2010
27.03.2010
Event: Festival of Culture
Organizer: Palmerston North City Council
Venue: The Square
Time: 9.00am -5.00 pm
This is the time of the year, where people from all parts of the world in Palmy gathered and displayed their culture. Variety of food sold; people wearing their best and colourful traditional clothes; dancers danced to the musics etc. Many stalls were up promoting their own countries' uniqueness :) Well, for MUMSA, this year happened to be its first time performing in FoC. Cool!!Well, if we have more people and sponsors, we can work together with the Malaysian Manawatu Group/ Club and set up good team work in promoting our beloved country. Maybe we could have 2 booth, 1 selling food and besides it having multimedia stuffs showing our beautiful country, where Malaysia is in the world's map (I bet not many know where Malaysia is exactly!), display the clothes, play our songs, the dances, the games..many other things can be included..easy said than done..but hey, if we never do it, we never know how it will turn up! it's all about teamwork, it's all about sincerity, it's all about love and passion..we are the little ambassador here. Show them what we got! Overall, for me, this year's was much better than last year.
28.03.2010
Event: Farmer's day
Location: Dairy farm in Woodville
Time: 9.00-11.30 am
A sudden decision to go to Woodville after Dennis called me that morning postponing my trip to Mana Island due to bad weather. Went there with KShikin and daughters and KFatan :) It's been awhile since I last visit to any farm. Felt good after visiting this place. Refreshed my knowledge on dairy cattle nutrition (I forgotten most of this part, I tk minat, huhu), the biology part, the milk science topic (well I got to answer most of his Q, which is satisfying!!) I was very impressed to see the technology they implement in their farm. From irrigation system, to calculating the dry matter of the grass, the 7 minutes moving milking parlor, the device they have in the collecting tank; siap ada GPS nk cari shortcut to get to a farm. The driver is well taught on how to use a device used to check for the milk whether it can be mixed to another bigger tank in factory or not. They check for the protein, water, fat, somatic cell count. SCC mesti lower or within normal range kalau tinggi maksudnye ada jangkitan lah pd mana2 cow di farm tu. The farmer showed us his silage, ah, saya rindu sungguh bau silage yg manis :D the cows there, were all big and healthy! Friesien Holstein breed.
Event: Festival of Culture
Organizer: Palmerston North City Council
Venue: The Square
Time: 9.00am -5.00 pm
This is the time of the year, where people from all parts of the world in Palmy gathered and displayed their culture. Variety of food sold; people wearing their best and colourful traditional clothes; dancers danced to the musics etc. Many stalls were up promoting their own countries' uniqueness :) Well, for MUMSA, this year happened to be its first time performing in FoC. Cool!!Well, if we have more people and sponsors, we can work together with the Malaysian Manawatu Group/ Club and set up good team work in promoting our beloved country. Maybe we could have 2 booth, 1 selling food and besides it having multimedia stuffs showing our beautiful country, where Malaysia is in the world's map (I bet not many know where Malaysia is exactly!), display the clothes, play our songs, the dances, the games..many other things can be included..easy said than done..but hey, if we never do it, we never know how it will turn up! it's all about teamwork, it's all about sincerity, it's all about love and passion..we are the little ambassador here. Show them what we got! Overall, for me, this year's was much better than last year.
28.03.2010
Event: Farmer's day
Location: Dairy farm in Woodville
Time: 9.00-11.30 am
A sudden decision to go to Woodville after Dennis called me that morning postponing my trip to Mana Island due to bad weather. Went there with KShikin and daughters and KFatan :) It's been awhile since I last visit to any farm. Felt good after visiting this place. Refreshed my knowledge on dairy cattle nutrition (I forgotten most of this part, I tk minat, huhu), the biology part, the milk science topic (well I got to answer most of his Q, which is satisfying!!) I was very impressed to see the technology they implement in their farm. From irrigation system, to calculating the dry matter of the grass, the 7 minutes moving milking parlor, the device they have in the collecting tank; siap ada GPS nk cari shortcut to get to a farm. The driver is well taught on how to use a device used to check for the milk whether it can be mixed to another bigger tank in factory or not. They check for the protein, water, fat, somatic cell count. SCC mesti lower or within normal range kalau tinggi maksudnye ada jangkitan lah pd mana2 cow di farm tu. The farmer showed us his silage, ah, saya rindu sungguh bau silage yg manis :D the cows there, were all big and healthy! Friesien Holstein breed.
Monday, March 15, 2010
La Tahzan Sharina
It was frustrating to see the result for Public Health paper...
I was so worried that I couldn't get to proceed with my Master degree study..So I met Natalia Benquet this morning to talk over about this matter and get some clarification. I told everything that she wanted to know, how I felt about this, what my expectations regarding this paper.. I never knew that I would cry in front of her, someone whom I can consider as a stranger..I can't hold this tears anymore, it was such a burden for me :'( Every now and then I would cry even while typing this..I need hugs, comforting words which motivate me to move on.I'm not as strong as some people thought I was...I knew the fact that I passed the paper,but I'm expecting more than I got because I believe I deserved more especially when I didn't know where went wrong as I and other students never receive our marks on time. The thing they always said to me was you explained well but just need to improve the stats part; and that was when they returned the last assignment to me; and I still get low marks?!..Now tell me, what can I do to correct my mistakes? How can I learn from the mistakes or flaws in doing academic writing when I do not know where my mistakes were in the first place??? However, it was all too late, TOO LATE!! The thing left for me is to work harder and harder for my thesis..
I was so worried that I couldn't get to proceed with my Master degree study..So I met Natalia Benquet this morning to talk over about this matter and get some clarification. I told everything that she wanted to know, how I felt about this, what my expectations regarding this paper.. I never knew that I would cry in front of her, someone whom I can consider as a stranger..I can't hold this tears anymore, it was such a burden for me :'( Every now and then I would cry even while typing this..I need hugs, comforting words which motivate me to move on.I'm not as strong as some people thought I was...I knew the fact that I passed the paper,but I'm expecting more than I got because I believe I deserved more especially when I didn't know where went wrong as I and other students never receive our marks on time. The thing they always said to me was you explained well but just need to improve the stats part; and that was when they returned the last assignment to me; and I still get low marks?!..Now tell me, what can I do to correct my mistakes? How can I learn from the mistakes or flaws in doing academic writing when I do not know where my mistakes were in the first place??? However, it was all too late, TOO LATE!! The thing left for me is to work harder and harder for my thesis..
Saturday, March 13, 2010
river valley white water rafting; mokai grandcanyon
13/3/10
depart as early as 615am heading to Taihape which took us almost 2 hours by car. There were 9 of us: Husna, Beatrice, Nurul, Lucky, Fatima, Amri, Bro Taufik, Aysha and I. An odd number ;) Witnessed Allah's creation, subhanAllah, so panoramic! It was a chilly and foggy day but alhamdulillah we reached there on time :).. Once settled ourselves in the lounge, we listened to the instruction given by Gordy; basically on what and how to wear the gear they provided- thermal, wetsuit (~ scuba diving suit), shoes and helmet. after changing, boarded the bus (neville-the bus driver was so friendly, warm, and nice) got us to the site; Rangitikei river. Before we got ourselves wet, we were divided into groups and we were taught on how to hold the row, right way to sit etc.. and my group (according to Gordy) actually was the weakest group since no one has ever done it before n have no idea of what rafting really was n all girls?! For other groups, each has at least 1 guy on the boat and some of them had done this before ocassionally.. Thank God, Gordy; our guide treated us well, he's so patient and taught us till we got the flow..Had so much fun! with the forwards, backwards, drop, hold, left, right, harder movements, we managed to finished the rafting without a flip or flown out from the boat or knocked our head to the rocks..it started with a great 1-2 then 3-4 and lastly grade 5!. Backward fall at the dog's paw area if i'm not mistaken, was awesome! breath taking scenery with crystal clear water, the smooth cutting sand stone and lime stone of wall of canyon, small hiding caves and wonderful falls were all the prizes we earned from the activity! I couldn't believe myself when Gordy told us to hop out from the boat and that's it! we were done! I was so blurred and wanted for some more adventure!!like a littlt kid asking for more stories.. haha..btw, the price for grade 5 white water rafting is 165 dollar + 75 dollar for photos.
didn't do anything at mokai. i wish i could but i can't. not because I'm scared but I have other restrictions..huhuhu..watched my friend doing the bungy jumping and flying fox..they had so much fun screaming and laughing while doing it..maybe they just couldn't believe themselves, they eventually made it! the swing was scary though..it seemed like they cut the string while you were hanging beyond the platform and suddenly fall from a high place vertically then horizontally and swinging back and forth along the shallow river.
in a nutshell, the rafting was worth it although many would say it is rather expensive compared to other places. but for me, the rapids were great and varied and it was much longer distance than any other place.
depart as early as 615am heading to Taihape which took us almost 2 hours by car. There were 9 of us: Husna, Beatrice, Nurul, Lucky, Fatima, Amri, Bro Taufik, Aysha and I. An odd number ;) Witnessed Allah's creation, subhanAllah, so panoramic! It was a chilly and foggy day but alhamdulillah we reached there on time :).. Once settled ourselves in the lounge, we listened to the instruction given by Gordy; basically on what and how to wear the gear they provided- thermal, wetsuit (~ scuba diving suit), shoes and helmet. after changing, boarded the bus (neville-the bus driver was so friendly, warm, and nice) got us to the site; Rangitikei river. Before we got ourselves wet, we were divided into groups and we were taught on how to hold the row, right way to sit etc.. and my group (according to Gordy) actually was the weakest group since no one has ever done it before n have no idea of what rafting really was n all girls?! For other groups, each has at least 1 guy on the boat and some of them had done this before ocassionally.. Thank God, Gordy; our guide treated us well, he's so patient and taught us till we got the flow..Had so much fun! with the forwards, backwards, drop, hold, left, right, harder movements, we managed to finished the rafting without a flip or flown out from the boat or knocked our head to the rocks..it started with a great 1-2 then 3-4 and lastly grade 5!. Backward fall at the dog's paw area if i'm not mistaken, was awesome! breath taking scenery with crystal clear water, the smooth cutting sand stone and lime stone of wall of canyon, small hiding caves and wonderful falls were all the prizes we earned from the activity! I couldn't believe myself when Gordy told us to hop out from the boat and that's it! we were done! I was so blurred and wanted for some more adventure!!like a littlt kid asking for more stories.. haha..btw, the price for grade 5 white water rafting is 165 dollar + 75 dollar for photos.
didn't do anything at mokai. i wish i could but i can't. not because I'm scared but I have other restrictions..huhuhu..watched my friend doing the bungy jumping and flying fox..they had so much fun screaming and laughing while doing it..maybe they just couldn't believe themselves, they eventually made it! the swing was scary though..it seemed like they cut the string while you were hanging beyond the platform and suddenly fall from a high place vertically then horizontally and swinging back and forth along the shallow river.
in a nutshell, the rafting was worth it although many would say it is rather expensive compared to other places. but for me, the rapids were great and varied and it was much longer distance than any other place.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Life goes on
12/03/2010- Farhana Md Azizan pulang ke tanah air dgn air mata..bercampur baur antara pilu meninggalkan teman2 rapat nya dan gembira menanti saat bertemu dgn keluarga tersayang di Malaysia..apa pun, tahniah diucapkan! segulung ijazah dah pun sampai di rmh, your parents must be very proud of you! kalau rindu kami, belek2 lah gambar2 yg kta tangkap.gambar poyos plg bnyk kut...haha..I, personally shall miss you dearly..the girls' talk b4 bed, we would remind each other about things we've forgotten, having ice cream in the middle of night, singing out loud in my room, movies, gossiping, and the list goes on and on.... Buat Cik Noha- adik; anak bongsu; paling manja (well, itu gelaran yg dicipta Noha sendiri) La Tahzan..Kak Sha kan ada ;) hana melangkah ke satu tangga ke hadapan dan kta yg tinggal kat palmy indah permai ni mesti move on juga! tetiba rasa tk sabar nk graduate :) jia you!!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
A walk to remember "P
19.02.10
slept over at husna's house. we had dinner and watch a movie together..the movie was awesome! well, it's because i love vampire stories, but i don't really enjoy watching twilight :P because it's more like a love story rather than the myth ruthless blood sucker movie..sorry for the twilight sagas' lovers out there! hahaa..
20.02.10
woke up very early..we (husna, afsana and I) had a decent breakfast together then off to do groceries on a lovely morning! There was pegaga sold that day..never seen pegaga in NZ before..hehe..bought a bag plastic of it and gave half to Doris (Nigerian friend of mine)whom I met at the market...I was promoting the Malay salad/herb to her and on Monday she told me that she loved it soo much as it produced a unique flavour while chewing it- like mint..however her children didn't enjoy it as much as she did.to be honest, I don't even like it when I was a child either..But now, I like it a lot! Right after that, we proceed with a 4-hour non stop shopping..from 1 shop to another..hahaa...what a record! Played basketball in the evening with zainab, fatima, the little sister of them (hajar), sarah, auntie norzam and her daughter :) the court was filled with laughter and togetherness which I miss so much...Dinner was great; we had a variety of dishes..bangladesh cuisines (brinjal smashed and prawn with brinjal-afsana's cooking), rice and stir fry fatt choy..
21.02.10
woke up early again but on this date we went out for tramping!! my first ever tramping in NZ :) although I was not fit enough for this trip, I still wanna try it..Alhamdulillah the track in Ruahine Forest park wasn't that difficult, the weather was perfect, people were nice and friendly, knowledgeable guides and the most important thing was that I didn't get asthma attack during the walk! the trail was hilly most of the time ;) indeed it was a tiring day of the week but I enjoyed every moment of it, experienced the mesmerizing nature of Manawatu..got to observe the smallest bird- rifleman; robin, fantail, grey warbler..knew few trees like the bush lawyer, silver fern, the big old yet beautiful beach tree..owh, 1 trick shared by Paul the guide-to get the robin's attention, you just rubbed the tree and it will come nearer to you..cool!!
that evening, we were very tired and just ordered pizza for dinner and watched a movie (the lake house).owh, that handsome keanu reeves and the pretty sandra bullock") a wonderful romantic movie; although it some sort of ridiculous-didn't-make-sense kind of story.however, I still love it because of the actor!hahahaa..
Take home msg:
1. Put away the differences and shyness. try to make friends, get to know other people, learn their culture, show them how wonderful malaysians are.(promoting our own country actually- since we are representing our country here ;))
2. Challenge yourself to do something different then only you'll realize your potential..if you keep feeling scared to make a change, you won't learn anything in life and might be left behind..
3. Be prepared and read a lot on things related to the current activities so that we can discuss about it in a more interesting way..
slept over at husna's house. we had dinner and watch a movie together..the movie was awesome! well, it's because i love vampire stories, but i don't really enjoy watching twilight :P because it's more like a love story rather than the myth ruthless blood sucker movie..sorry for the twilight sagas' lovers out there! hahaa..
20.02.10
woke up very early..we (husna, afsana and I) had a decent breakfast together then off to do groceries on a lovely morning! There was pegaga sold that day..never seen pegaga in NZ before..hehe..bought a bag plastic of it and gave half to Doris (Nigerian friend of mine)whom I met at the market...I was promoting the Malay salad/herb to her and on Monday she told me that she loved it soo much as it produced a unique flavour while chewing it- like mint..however her children didn't enjoy it as much as she did.to be honest, I don't even like it when I was a child either..But now, I like it a lot! Right after that, we proceed with a 4-hour non stop shopping..from 1 shop to another..hahaa...what a record! Played basketball in the evening with zainab, fatima, the little sister of them (hajar), sarah, auntie norzam and her daughter :) the court was filled with laughter and togetherness which I miss so much...Dinner was great; we had a variety of dishes..bangladesh cuisines (brinjal smashed and prawn with brinjal-afsana's cooking), rice and stir fry fatt choy..
21.02.10
woke up early again but on this date we went out for tramping!! my first ever tramping in NZ :) although I was not fit enough for this trip, I still wanna try it..Alhamdulillah the track in Ruahine Forest park wasn't that difficult, the weather was perfect, people were nice and friendly, knowledgeable guides and the most important thing was that I didn't get asthma attack during the walk! the trail was hilly most of the time ;) indeed it was a tiring day of the week but I enjoyed every moment of it, experienced the mesmerizing nature of Manawatu..got to observe the smallest bird- rifleman; robin, fantail, grey warbler..knew few trees like the bush lawyer, silver fern, the big old yet beautiful beach tree..owh, 1 trick shared by Paul the guide-to get the robin's attention, you just rubbed the tree and it will come nearer to you..cool!!
that evening, we were very tired and just ordered pizza for dinner and watched a movie (the lake house).owh, that handsome keanu reeves and the pretty sandra bullock") a wonderful romantic movie; although it some sort of ridiculous-didn't-make-sense kind of story.however, I still love it because of the actor!hahahaa..
1. Put away the differences and shyness. try to make friends, get to know other people, learn their culture, show them how wonderful malaysians are.(promoting our own country actually- since we are representing our country here ;))
2. Challenge yourself to do something different then only you'll realize your potential..if you keep feeling scared to make a change, you won't learn anything in life and might be left behind..
3. Be prepared and read a lot on things related to the current activities so that we can discuss about it in a more interesting way..
Monday, February 1, 2010
I miss you, I love you
Last weekend I spent times with Kak Laila's family. I felt like home :) How lovely that feeling was! Actually, from the first day I stepped my feet on NZ's ground, I have already MISSED my family and friends..They are all scattered around the globe..I want to be there with them, even just for a while..I felt EMPTY after returning from Kak Laila's place. Starting from yesterday, I am alone and shall be alone in this court until Ain came back from Malaysia next week. It is because I LOVE all of them (ukhwah fillah, inshaAllah) that this feeling knocked on my door. I have a choice to open or ignore it, but I chose to open it. There, in front of me, I saw MEMORIES that I cherished...The laughters, tears, sulking, long faces, smiles etc..I don't have to flip through the album to remind me of them, as they all embedded in my mind and in my heart- the best photo album ever! How these small matters built the me inside..I learnt a lot from them..To be independent, to be creative, to venture on new things, to try hard enough to climb the highest mountain and to survive in the end of the journey. And how I woke up early in the morning and made Chapati after subuh prayer for mak and mak Ndak, went for grocery, sometimes hang around for hours in the malls, exchanged stories, had discussions over lunch or dinner, had book reviews, out for movies, visiting family members, enjoying the nature...I have nothing to regret during my short stay last year in Malaysia, Alhamdulillah..Today, I received a bad news about Kak Long's health condition which moved me emotionally..I want to be there by her side, in Malaysia..I want to be Alang's and Mak Lang's support system..I wanted it so badly right now...But I realised, I can't fight what is beyond my control...I have my responsibility here and all I can do is pray..I pray for your quick recovery, Kak Long. May Allah give you the strength to move on and fight it..You are the most independent cousin I ever knew, you are strong, smart and kind..InshaAllah, Allah will be there to help you. He is our Refuge and our Hope..
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)