Memories

May Allah bless you always..
I continue what you did before, Abah. I never realised that I would feel happy helping the kids with their Quran recitation and memorized a number of surah. Alhamdulillah :)  To me, by assisting them, I am actually helping myself at the same time.
Hope I can be like you, Abah. You had the patience in handling the kids..

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While I was my way back, I passed by this one house who has a variety of roses. It caught my attention because they have this beautiful pink and yellow roses next to each other. Reminds me of the pink roses Abah planted years ago and currently taken care by my Mother. It's the symbol of their love :') And every time it blooms, Mom and I would always feel his warm love filled the air as if he's there...

Eid al-Adha 1431H

It has been a great day today, alhamdulillah. This year I celebrated Eid al-Adha in NZ. I am loving every moment of it :) Well, most of it because of the warm welcoming of invitation by invitation from house to house :D but the important part that should not be forgotten is building rapport with the community here..Btw, it's Wednesday today, so work has to be completed before I can enjoy myself in the evening :P The most memorable occasion on this date I could say was my last raya visit to Kak D's house. Not only on Eid but every time I visited Kak D and Abg Musli, we always had a brilliant, critically thinking topics to discuss. And there's no exception for today too. What enlightened the discussion today was the presence of Abg Mat Zamri and Kak Laila. We threw some enquiries that have been wondering in our minds to Ustaz Zamri regarding our beloved Prophet S.A.W. life and his wife Aisyah, about the Quran authenticity, the different in mazhabs etc. The way Ust Zamri answers to all the questions prepared us on how to tackle these sort of issues when asked by curious people out there. :) Thank you Allah for having set this chance for us to sit down and discuss them all.

Daya kekuatan iman bagi seorang mukmin

Apabila dia hidup di lingkungan masyarakat sekitarnya, dia bagaikan gunung yang tinggi yang tidak akan goyah dengan ombak dan gelombang yang besar. Itulah gambaran yang diberikan untuk melambangkan peribadi seorang mukmin sejati. Dengan pendirian dan iman yang teguh dan kuat, dia mampu memelihara amanat Allah walau apa jua cabaran/ dugaan yang mendatang.

Abdullah bin Abbas r.a berkata: Pada suatu hari saya berada di belakang Rasulullah S.A.W. lalu Baginda bersabda:

Wahai pemuda, aku akan mengajarkan kepadamu beberapa kalimat sebagai berikut:
Peliharalah (perintah) Allah, maka Allah akan memelihara engkau, dan peliharalah (larangan) Allah, nescaya engkau dapati Allah selalu di hadapanmu. Apabila kamu meminta, mintalah kepada Allah dan apabila kamu meminta pertolongan, mintalah pertolongan Allah.

Ketahuilah olehmu, sekiranya umat manusia sepakat hendak memberi manfaat kepadamu, nescaya tidak sampai sesuatu juapun daripadanya melainkan apa yang telah ditetapkan Allah lebih dahulu.

Demikian juga sekiranya mereka itu sepakat pula hendak membahayakan kau, tidak akan sampai bahaya itu melainkan menurut apa yang telah ditetapkan Allah terlebih dahulu. Terangkatlah kalam, dan keringlah kertas.

(H.R. Tirmidzi)

Excerpt from the book by Muhammad Al-Ghazali " Akhlak seorang muslim" editor: Drs H Mod Rifa'l pg 200-201

Letter to you, mother

Mother,

Although there were many people around me lately, accompanying me, listened to my ramblings, laughed and cried with me, I still left with lonesome feeling. I called you almost every other day. Strange, right? But there's this one emotion every time I hear your voice-happy and comfort. I wish you're right by my side.

I noticed there's different in your voice tone recently- distressed about me. Don't be sad, don't cry mother.. I am fine, and inshaAllah will be fine too in the future =) I have faith in Him. I feel safe every time I say His names/ zikr.. It's you that I am concerned about. Your health and your safety. Physically, I am miles apart from you to take care of you. But I'll be home soon mother, inshaAllah and I know I can rely on Him to protect you from harm. We have Allah and He is very near to us. Pray to Him, He will grant our prayers. Have patience as patience is beautiful in the eyes of Allah. It's true that distance makes hearts grow fonder :')

Thank you for loving me and being so patient in raising me, mother.
 
E.
p/s: I love you.

NO!

Perlakuan itu tak pernah aku undang
Tapi sentiasa mengetuk pintu ku
Kuatkanlah aku Ya Tuhanku
Aku tak mahukan ia
Dan tak mahu kecundang dalam dugaan ini
Kerana aku takut
Terlalu takut ia hinggap dan mengotori hatiku..

anak-anak kita

Anak ibarat kain putih tika dia dilahirkan. ibu bapa adalah di antara manusia terawal yang akan mencorakkannya. Jika dinilai dari sudut seninya, ia cukup subjektif. Tapi jika dilihat dari aspek kemanusiaan, moral, agama dan pendidikan, manusia akan memberi penilaian yg hampir serupa.
Dengan  itu, persiapan awal utk mbentuk anak-anak adalah dengan pembentukan diri ibu bapa itu sendiri. Saya bukan lah insan yg pantas utk mbicarakan soal anak-anak dan institusi kekeluargaan, namun hasil pemerhatian saya yg sedikit ini cukup utk mendorong saya utk menulis ttg nya.
Acap kali kita mengatakan yg kita ini anak merdeka. Merdeka kah kita? Atau sebenarnya kita masih lagi dijajah? Kesedaran kita mengenai kefahaman agama sering ditolak ke kiri dan ke kanan bagaikan bola yg disepak tp tk nmpk di mana golnya. Tk siapa mahu memegangnya erat2. Tk mahu jadi ustazah atau ustaz katanya. Pengetahuan agama bkn sekadar tahu mengaji, solat, puasa, byr zakat, dan tunaikan haji. Ianya lebih dari itu. Bila berbicara ttg sejarah kegemilangan Islam, brp org yg mampu menceritakan nya kembali dgn penuh bangga dan yakin yg kita akan kembali ke zaman itu semula? Brp ramai yg menjadikan kisah nabi-nabi kita sbg bedtime stories anak-anak setiap mlm? Sedarkah kita bagaimana cara didikan anak2 zaman gemilangnya Islam itu blh kita aplikasikan di kala ini? MashaAllah, hebat sungguh ibu bapa ketika itu. Anak sedari kecil tlh diajar utk mendalami Al-Quran dan menghafaz nya lalu bisa mengeluarkan fatwa seawal umur 20-an dan blh menulis buku-buku ilmiah yg bnyk semasa umur mudanya. Kesemuanya berbalik kepada asas2 pengetahuan dan kefahaman kita. Islam is not only a religion but it is a way of life. Kecintaan terhadap ilmu dan galakan utk mencari ilmu secara lbh mdalam wajib dipupuk sejak kecil. Hanya dgn ilmu manusia mampu beramal dgn perbuatan. Maka terselamatlah ummah inshaAllah.
Teringat saya pd hadis Rasulullah SAW: Akan tiba satu hari bila musuh-musuh menggerumuni ummat Islam sebagaimana semut menggerumuni makanan. Sedangkan pada ketika itu ummat Islam dalam keadaaan yang ramai. Tetapi hanya ibarat buih di lautan. Kerana mereka ketika itu dihinggapi penyakit al-Wahn iaitu cintakan dunia, takutkan kematian. 
Nauzubillah..moga kita mengambil pengajaran.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R3LBrfluGCQ

The Lesson

Alhamdulillah..Thank you Allah for arranging this and that for me. Today was the day where things are cleared for me :) I am grateful to You,  that my friend and I met in Your course then were separated; but our hearts are near to each other because of You, inshaAllah. I learn a lot from her, how to lead my life accordingly (following sunnatullah) in order to be a better muslim. I realized I have made huge mistakes before so I raised my hands and pray, seeking forgiveness from You. Help me, guide me, protect me, Ya Rabb.
I need You..