Monday, March 15, 2010

La Tahzan Sharina

It was frustrating to see the result for Public Health paper...
I was so worried that I couldn't get to proceed with my Master degree study..So I met Natalia Benquet this morning to talk over about this matter and get some clarification. I told everything that she wanted to know, how I felt about this, what my expectations regarding this paper.. I never knew that I would cry in front of her, someone whom I can consider as a stranger..I can't hold this tears anymore, it was such a burden for me :'( Every now and then I would cry even while typing this..I need hugs, comforting words which motivate me to move on.I'm not as strong as some people thought I was...I knew the fact that I passed the paper,but I'm expecting more than I got because I believe I deserved more especially when I didn't know where went wrong as I and other students never receive our marks on time. The thing they always said to me was you explained well but just need to improve the stats part; and that was when they returned the last assignment to me; and I still get low marks?!..Now tell me, what can I do to correct my mistakes? How can I learn from the mistakes or flaws in doing academic writing when I do not know where my mistakes were in the first place??? However, it was all too late, TOO LATE!! The thing left for me is to work harder and harder for my thesis..

Saturday, March 13, 2010

river valley white water rafting; mokai grandcanyon

depart as early as 615am heading to Taihape which took us almost 2 hours by car. There were 9 of us: Husna, Beatrice, Nurul, Lucky, Fatima, Amri, Bro Taufik, Aysha and I. An odd number ;) Witnessed Allah's creation, subhanAllah, so panoramic! It was a chilly and foggy day but alhamdulillah we reached there on time :).. Once settled ourselves in the lounge, we listened to the instruction given by Gordy; basically on what and how to wear the gear they provided- thermal, wetsuit (~ scuba diving suit), shoes and helmet. after changing, boarded the bus (neville-the bus driver was so friendly, warm, and nice) got us to the site; Rangitikei river. Before we got ourselves wet, we were divided into groups and we were taught on how to hold the row, right way to sit etc.. and my group (according to Gordy) actually was the weakest group since no one has ever done it before n have no idea of what rafting really was n all girls?! For other groups, each has at least 1 guy on the boat and some of them had done this before ocassionally.. Thank God, Gordy; our guide treated us well, he's so patient and taught us till we got the flow..Had so much fun! with the forwards, backwards, drop, hold, left, right, harder movements, we managed to finished the rafting without a flip or flown out from the boat or knocked our head to the started with a great 1-2 then 3-4 and lastly grade 5!. Backward fall at the dog's paw area if i'm not mistaken, was awesome! breath taking scenery with crystal clear water, the smooth cutting sand stone and lime stone of wall of canyon, small hiding caves and wonderful falls were all the prizes we earned from the activity! I couldn't believe myself when Gordy told us to hop out from the boat and that's it! we were done! I was so blurred and wanted for some more adventure!!like a littlt kid asking for more stories.. haha..btw, the price for grade 5 white water rafting is 165 dollar + 75 dollar for photos.
didn't do anything at mokai. i wish i could but i can't. not because I'm scared but I have other restrictions..huhuhu..watched my friend doing the bungy jumping and flying fox..they had so much fun screaming and laughing while doing it..maybe they just couldn't believe themselves, they eventually made it! the swing was scary seemed like they cut the string while you were hanging beyond the platform and  suddenly fall from a high place vertically then horizontally and swinging back and forth along the shallow river.
in a nutshell, the rafting was worth it although many would say it is rather expensive compared to other places. but for me, the rapids were great and varied and it was much longer distance  than any other place.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Life goes on

12/03/2010- Farhana Md Azizan pulang ke tanah air dgn air mata..bercampur baur antara pilu meninggalkan teman2 rapat nya dan gembira menanti saat bertemu dgn keluarga tersayang di Malaysia..apa pun, tahniah diucapkan! segulung ijazah dah pun sampai di rmh, your parents must be very proud of you! kalau rindu kami, belek2 lah gambar2 yg kta tangkap.gambar poyos plg bnyk kut...haha..I, personally shall miss you dearly..the girls' talk b4 bed, we would remind each other about things we've forgotten, having ice cream in the middle of night, singing out loud in my room, movies, gossiping, and the list goes on and on.... Buat Cik Noha- adik; anak bongsu; paling manja (well, itu gelaran yg dicipta Noha sendiri) La Tahzan..Kak Sha kan ada ;) hana melangkah ke satu tangga ke hadapan dan kta yg tinggal kat palmy indah permai ni mesti move on juga! tetiba rasa tk sabar nk graduate :) jia you!!