I miss you, I love you

Last weekend I spent times with Kak Laila's family. I felt like home :) How lovely that feeling was! Actually, from the first day I stepped my feet on NZ's ground, I have already MISSED my family and friends..They are all scattered around the globe..I want to be there with them, even just for a while..I felt EMPTY after returning from Kak Laila's place. Starting from yesterday, I am alone and shall be alone in this court until Ain came back from Malaysia next week. It is because I LOVE all of them (ukhwah fillah, inshaAllah) that this feeling knocked on my door. I have a choice to open or ignore it, but I chose to open it. There, in front of me, I saw MEMORIES that I cherished...The laughters, tears, sulking, long faces, smiles etc..I don't have to flip through the album to remind me of them, as they all embedded in my mind and in my heart- the best photo album ever! How these small matters built the me inside..I learnt a lot from them..To be independent, to be creative, to venture on new things, to try hard enough to climb the highest mountain and to survive in the end of the journey. And how I woke up early in the morning and made Chapati after subuh prayer for mak and mak Ndak, went for grocery, sometimes hang around for hours in the malls, exchanged stories, had discussions over lunch or dinner, had book reviews, out for movies, visiting family members, enjoying the nature...I have nothing to regret during my short stay last year in Malaysia, Alhamdulillah..
Today, I received a bad news about Kak Long's health condition which moved me emotionally..I want to be there by her side, in Malaysia..I want to be Alang's and Mak Lang's support system..I wanted it so badly right now...But I realised, I can't fight what is beyond my control...I have my responsibility here and all I can do is pray..I pray for your quick recovery, Kak Long. May Allah give you the strength to move on and fight it..You are the most independent cousin I ever knew, you are strong, smart and kind..InshaAllah, Allah will be there to help you. He is our Refuge and our Hope..

today, yesterday and restaurant review :P

Today shall be my first time staying alone in kak laila's house..Nuha has moved to a new place which is only a few steps away..hehehee..I can run there whenever I wanted to ;) Helped her at her studio-home and I even prepared lunch-Nasi Lemak yg tk lemak, Sambal tumis ikan bilis yg tk pedas, telur rebus n ayam goreng berempah..I shall miss the girls' talking over dinner and a company watching tv :(

Yesterday I had breakfast with Nuha n her friend, Dr. Jijan (Azizan) at The Coffee Club. I tried Vienna coffee..it's actually long black coffee topped with cream..it's so bitter; although I have added 3 sachet of sugar, the bitterness is still there! Overall, I love the ambience there, love the smell of coffee in the shop..The arrangement  n space in between seats were just nice makes the place cosy. I think I love doing this kind of activity during the weekend! I'll try to spend some times n taste different kind of coffee at different shops around Palmy..

Yesterday too, we went to Wellington!! hahaa...just because Jijan wanted to have lunch at Kayu Manis ;) The place is beautiful and comfortable with great treatment from the waitress :D Not so many people dine here..I was told by Nuha n Jijan that the price were different. At noon, the price is much cheaper compared to late afternoon..We assumed that they wanted to attract many people to come and lunch there, hence the price is reduced.. Anyway, we shared our meal there. The char kuey teow was tasty, nasi lemak was..erm, I could say fair??hehe..doesn't suit my taste bud, sorry :( btw, their satay n its peanut sauce were good but can't challenge Satay Kajang and Satay Endut :D I had soto ayam-the soup was great, the taste of the spices were balance..Unfortunately, the shreaded chicken meat was terrible!! It's fortunate that I didn't suffer from stomach upset.

That's all for the review :P I'll update whenever I go to a new place for dining, insyaAllah :)

KASBI

Date: 19th Dec 2009
Venue: Bangi, Selangor
Activity: Sports

Wuhoooo!! I had another interesting agenda the next day after returning from Langkawi ;) Mom wasn't really agreed with me when I told her that I have to go to my new friend's house and play netball together. She was worried because I hadn't had rest yet after 3 weeks of continuous traveling :D But I enjoyed being busy; I felt satisfied, useful and active! I had to coax her and let me join the ISMA Perak team for KASBI- Karnival Sukan Belia Islam Nasional 2009. Owh, by the way, surely you want to know how I got in touch with ISMA Perak, right? Well, I received a call from Kak Nora saying that a friend of mine currently doing medicine in NZ gave her my contact number; and she's from Kedah..But kak Nora wasn't really sure that girl's name..I was like, huh?? hahaha..sounds funny to me!! So, till now, I don't know who she is..Anyway, I am glad that I'm part of the ladies..Actually, to be honest, at first, I felt uncomfortable around them and I didn't think I can fit in the group:( I know they were so kind to me, however, there is no common interest to start a conversation! How tragic was that?! Fortunately, Shikin (my new friend) was a graduate from UPM and currently doing her second degree in medicine was there..At least I have someone to talk to..on common thing...But the atmosphere was kind of changed the next morning..Everyone was so friendly and seemed like we all have known each other for years!! Maybe someone prayed for it??hehee..From there, I realised that even through games we can build wonderful ukhwah; and I hope this will last forever :) Okay, back to the sport: Perak team arrived just on time b4 the game started. We missed the grand opening though, which was held at Astaka Sukan UKM due to unavoidable circumstances I could say ;) The ladies were playing netball at German-Malaysia Institute, Bangi while the gentlemen were playing soccer at UKM's football field. Although we didn't win, but most important thing is that I make new friends and broadened my network :) I had so much fun especially playing in the rain..hehee..We all got wet but fortunate enough that there was no thunder! The game ended quite late. Overall, I enjoyed every moment of it!! Good memories to cherish..

malaysia my homeland

Nov.14 was the date I have been longing for. MALAYSIA my LOVE, here I come! I never thought I would feel this way as I didn't cry and feel homesick when I left for NZ in Feb 2009. I think it's funny! hehehe..First meal I had were ROTI CANAI n TEH TARIK. Abg bought me those although I didn't feel like having any; saddened by the fact that I wouldn't be staying long in KL. I wanna stay longer, catch up with ACIK, ALANG, KAK LONG, KAK NANA and NENEK. So, we headed to Ipoh after everyone had their dinner. Throughout the night I couldn't sleep and I force my mom to chat with me all night long! So sorry mak..I knew I shouldn't but I just need a friend to talk to..Every experience, every activity, every story had been told. We shared laughter most of the time :)
Hafezz and his family came by to visit me and my family 2 days before Raya celebration. My mom and I prepared sambal tumis udang, daging masak kicap and pecal for lunch. And the dessert was Bangkok Kaya Cake, my mom's specialty :D It was raining that day but am glad they could finally find my house. It's very difficult to find my house, I know..
Raya was extremely FUN! Most of my family members came and we talked and laughed and took our breath and laughed again..It was too good to be true :)
I stayed in Serdang for 2 weeks after Raya- to finish my assignment. I have to, since the materials I needed weren't available online. That's what Malaysia lacking of-publication! It's not that our researchers aren't doing their job well, it's just that they prefer to publish it in proceedings than an international journals?? But I reckoned, they can't publish the papers as they have put everything in the proceedings because one can't send the paper after they have put it in proceedings. So, moral of the story is: do not put everything in proceedings; only an extended abstract OR else u have to make some amendments on it in order to publish ;) Alhamdulillah, I managed to complete my assignment within the time frame :)
The following week, I went to Langkawi Island with mom; actually to accompany Shahaza for her interview at Underwater World. 3 days and 2 nights at Pantai Cenang. The place was so beautiful like Shangrila, subhanAllah...jogged and walked every morning, felt the breezed, the sand was soft like silk. During the night, the sky was so black and they stars shine like diamonds! Ya Rabb, your creation is marvelous! I shopped till I wanna drop dead looking at the bills :)) haha..
To tell you the truth, I could never imagine I can make it there. Usually, Alang or Abang would accompany my mom and I. But this time, I handled everything. Wuhoooo! And the most important part is, WE SURVIVED! hahaa..alhamdulillah for His guidance.
Owh, btw, Shahaza managed to get the job! She has started her duty last week, 5th January 2009. Good luck to you sista! Hope you'll enjoy every bit of it.. I know it will be difficult during this first phase, well they do know that we didn't have a formal education on wildlife and marine life. So, keep on reading! Jia you to you and me :)

DoN't U qUIt

from a friend to friends...

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is a queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out;

Don't give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,

It seems to a faint and faltering man,

Often the struggler has given up,

When he might have captured the victor's cup,

And he learned too late when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is a failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far,

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,

It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Thank you Lutfi for sharing the whole poem :) I love it..boost up my spirit!

ramadhan reminders

Though Ramadhan has left few days ago, but i still wanna share my story.. my first Ramadhan in NZ..the 1st day was funny, had to sahr at aysha's pod because of this 1 boy forgot to turn off the oven and he almost burn his kitchen! we all in Kairanga had to evacuate the building and waited for the fireman to come and evaluate the situation b4 we can go back to our room :( well, at 4.40am in the morning, what do you expect? we waited for almost 30 minutes..thanked God i grabbed bread with me..we were thirsty and had to ask for keys to get into rotary and eat at aysha's. huhu..sorry u guys, have to woke u guys early..well, it's Ramadhan btw 'kejut sahur' said Noha ;) ed and i actually had prepared enuff food for that morning, but only get to eat bread which i thought of making bread pudding haha..
Now, what's with Ramadhan reminders? eyush had this great idea of having reminding people through out this Ramadhan..these were the things she remind us about:
1. DO NOT COMPLAINT- masuklah kita dlm golongan yg sentiasa bersyukur
2. MENGINGATI MATI-mengingati mati itu mjadi penasihat yg sgt setia bg org yg bfikir.
3. LAILATULQADAR- mlm yg lbh baik dr 1000 bln, sama2lah kejarnya, tingkatkan prestasi dlm beramal soleh
4.MBACA AL-QURAN- perumpamaan org mukmin yg mbaca Al-Quran bagaikan buah limau, harum baunya, lazat rasanya (H.R. Al-Kamsah)
5.JAGA DIRI- usahakanlah kemuliaannya,krn engkau dipandang manusia bkn kerana rupa ttp kesempurnaanbudi & adab (Nabi S.A.W)
6.WASATIAH-keterampilan sederhana sebhgn dr iman(Riwayat Ibn Wajah). tinggalkan tabbaruj&blebih-lebihan.
7.BERBUAT BAIK- stp perbuatan baik itu adalah sedekah(Abu Syaibah r.a dr Nabi S.A.W)
8.3 PERKARA YG MENYELAMATKAN-takut pd Allah bila sendirian, blaku adil ketika suka/ marah, bjimat ketika susah&senang; 3 PERKARA YG MBINASAKAN-m'ikut hawa nafsu, tlampaubakhil&kagum seseorg dgn dirinya sendiri (Nabi S.A.W)
9.LAILATULQADAR-when Aisyah asked Prophet Muhammad,' what if i knw on whch nite the nite of al-qadr occurs, wht should i say?' Muhammad bpuh said:'say, O Allah, indeed You are All-Pardoning. You love forgiveness, so frogive me'.
10.REZEKI-katakanlah,'sungguh Tuhanku melapangkan rezeki& mbatasinya bg yg Dia kehendaki di antara hamba2Nya'dan apa sj yg kamu infakkan, Allah akn m'gantikannya & Dialah pemberi rezeki yg t'baik (34:39)
11.KEINGINAN&HARAPAN-org yg plg letih ialah mereka yg besar keinginan & harapannya.sandarkanlah ia hny di jlnNya.
12.DOA&SYUKUR-dan Dia tlh mberi sgl apa yg kamupohonkan padaNya.dan jika kamu m'hitung nikmat Allah, nescayakamu tdk mampu m'hitungnya.sungguh manusia itu sgt zalim&sgt m'ingkari(14:34)
13.ISTIQAMAH-ramadhan adalah bln mendidik iman ,mbersihkan jiwa & memantapkannya.istiqamahlah spy mjadi insan yg tbaik spjg thn & bkn cuma di bln puasa.
14.ISTIQAMAH-maka tetaplah engkau di jln yg benar sebagaimana diperintahkan kpdmu& juga org yg b'taubat bsamamu;dan jgnlah kamu melampaui batas. sungguh, DiaMaha Melihat apa yg kmau kerjakan (11:112)
moga kamu mdapat berkat drpdNya, lovely sister!

yesterday 030909

i laughed thinking of yesterday incident!...what a day! preparing solution for my experiment wasn't that exciting..i could feel the stupidity of calculating it...has been a while since i last making chemicals mixture..thank God there was no explotion in the lab! haha..exaggerating only :P
the funny thing was when I asked Hamish where I can keep my bacterial plates? which fridge is meant for them? and he answered, 'Do you want to DESTROY them?' I said, 'WHAT? I NVR WANNA DESTROY THEM, HAMISH! I HAVEN'T DONE THE EXTRACTION YET!'
Then Hamish was laughing sooooo hard I can see his face turn red and breathless....OMG! I told myself...Did I hear wrongly again? for like 100th times now??:P haha...He was actually saying do you wanna KEEP them in the fridge? (fast speed) What was I thinking that time? KEEP and DESTROY are 2 different words, pronounce differently..*&^%$ huhuhu malu siut!! nk cover malu tu I laughed together with him...:D adeh...tk tau apa mau jadi sama ini Sharina sudahhh...hohoho