Wednesday, November 23, 2011

nothing to regret. grateful. alhamdulillah.

8 months stayed in Malaysia was wonderful! though at times stressed did knock on my door, but with friends around, it did help. maybe not helping with the work, but just being there and willing to lend their ears, it was such a relief! Ramadhan was another new experience i never had before. this Ramadhan, we went to mosques for break-fast. when i say we, it refers to my housemate and I and sometimes our 1 or 2 other friends would joined us. subhanAllah, i couldn't describe the feeling, it was like? i don't ur heart feel so peaceful, happy (i knw it was more than tht) & u don't want to leave the place. u just want to be there all the time. i really miss those beautiful moment. i surely will cherish it till the end of my life. eid was fun too! met most of my relatives. been ages since we were last met! semua dah besar panjang, cantik2 and handsome2 belaka..hahaa.. those short time spent wisely and meaningfully, alhamdulillah. fulfilled my mom's dream too..inshaAllah will do it again mom! hehe..ronda2, singgah solat from masjid to masjid in every stop, inshaAllah.hopefully i'll be more brave in driving in future (competent) and go a bit farther than Ipoh and KL. hahaa!

rindu rumah sebenarnye. :D

Friday, November 11, 2011

it's not a song i wanted to sing

things aren't always turn out just how we want them to be. surely, there'll be missing pieces here and there, making turns before we reach our objective (duh, so boring). but, yeah, that's the reality we have to live in! at times, well, if you are lucky enough, you'll find it as a mysterious yet interesting adventure you have ever had in life! however, when it is the other way around, you'll definitely feel miserable :( everything seems so wrong, your nose bleeding, your head is going to blow out, you feel you going to vomit bla bla bla.. what would you do? cover yourself with duvet and snooze?...yeah, that's what most people would do. better than throw your rage to others i supposed.
should it happen to me at any time or situation (well, it happened to me yesterday), i do feel horrible :( especially when I am at the top of my spirit to do work when suddenly something just isn't right come in my way. i feel like screaming!!!!! i need to do my job, now! but I can't focus! :( so, i run back home after clearing up my lab bench. yes, I do make my place clean first before I leave. I hate messy table! Despite what happened, God actually is trying to send me a message. I believe so.
On my way back (my flat is quite a distance from Uni), I saw many unfortunate people-an elderly woman carrying her oxygen tank alone, a man on wheelchair crossing the road, a young girl with neuro signs..Oh, what I suffered is just...nothing! Maybe I am so obsess on being a focus and hardworking student I forget that some difficulties in life is just to test whether you are thankful for the bright days, your health and your easy paths..
Take it as a bonus from God, to have a day or 2 off; hoping you'll replenish your energy the following week, inshaAllah.
Have a wonderful Friday and weekend everyone :)
*I need to get myself iron tablets and multivitamins for this winter.I 'love' pills!

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal..