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Lately I kept having the same dream; almost every night. It was so beautiful, I don't even want to wake up. A dream that I hope would last..

I met abah, he was wearing all-white attire looking so handsome, fair and young. He sat in this well-lighted place, so peaceful. He smiled at me when he saw me approaching him :) I hugged him wouldn't want to let him go. After he convinced me, I laid my head on his shoulder while he stroke my head with his gentle touch. Just like the way he used to do when I was a kid. Words couldn't describe the happiness I felt. Even it was merely a dream, I still thanked You, Allah. That was the only chance I had to be with him.

My prayer to you abah: Allahumaghfirlahum warhamhum wa'afihim wa'fu'anhum..

*Every soul has its given date. When is mine? I do not know. But the major question is: Am I ready for it?

SMILE :)

Why do I smile?
I smile because I am happy
I smile because I saw something beautiful
I smile because I know you
I smile because I remembered sweet memories
I smile because I felt grateful I can live for another day
I smile because He ease my day
I smile because I know He is still there for me

Nevertheless,
I too smile to hide my anger and silliness
I also smile to chase away my sadness
And I do smile to strangers to untie the awkwardness

But most of the time,
I simply smile because,
I want to see you smiling back at me :)

Smile, and the world will smile back at you!

New thing to venture

Date: 10 April 2010
Day: Saturday
Time: ~11am- finish
Venue: Waitarere Forest, Levin
Husna promoting the Great forest 10km fun walk/run event in Levin to me early last week. At first I doubt I can do it but at the same time I am thrill to try something new! This event was my first ever! 10km is quite a challenge for me as I was not a trained walker/ runner. I am just an ordinary, casual walker..
There were about more than 300 people entered this 10km fun walk category. My aimed was not to win but merely to make it to the finish line, because I know I won't be able to do so as I am not fit. However, I did my very best in making sure I achieved my objective :) And yes, I made it, hooray!!! Everyone got their own finisher commemorate medal..People from all walks of life, all age range and different parts of NZ have gathered and joined this particular event. To my surprise, even senior citizens showed their potential in entering the marathon (run and walk) which is about 20km ++! I saw their faces were all red, they were bathed with sweat, they breath so hard and yet still running as hard as they can! MasyaAllah, where on earth they get their stamina from?! Hence I asked one lady, although she wasn't so old but she's 40+. She told me that she did this annually since young but for 10km, this was her second time. Her story reminds me of Ita, an Irish-born old lady whom currently stayed in Feilding. She's almost 70! I met Ita during my tramping trip to 3 bushes in a day last month. She was a very wonderful lady, telling me all she knew about trees, birds, mushrooms etc. She loves the bushes so much as she was raised in this kind of environment. She used to hard works, long distance walking and hiking, therefore it wasn't a problem for her to climb the hilly journey during the trip. Now, I felt like sending her a postcard..I miss the talking. I wish I could go to her house one day as she promised me to show her collection of nature's book.
Back to the Great forest event..Along the way in the forest, I came across a number of colourful mushrooms, trees, and birds. The birds sang a melodious song making my walk that day a lovely one! SubhanAllah..I felt so peaceful in the middle of the forest! Trees on both sides met each other, providing shades in the aisle leaving us with an ease of walking during noon..Thank you Allah for making it an easy day for me.

Venue: Foxton beach
Time: 2.00pm till 3.30pm
This was our (husna, lakshmi, shoukai and I) next stop. Had our sandwiches, cake and chips here..We 'buried' shoukai at the beach..Well, she volunteered to be buried :P Husna and I performed our prayer at he new platform (went there last year, there's no platform yet). While we prepared ourselves, many eyes were focusing on us. Maybe they have never seen Muslims pray in other places apart from the mosque. At that moment, we prayed at least we touched their hearts by showing them, it is not difficult to be a muslim. No matter where we are, we should be proud to be one! Hope the seed of iman in everyone of us grow and live well by nurturing it with prayer and dua (just like fertilizing and watering the plant to ensure it live)..

Tintaku

Melihat dedaun gugur satu persatu,
dingin yang menggigit diriku
membawa aku menyingkap kisah lalu
ada tawa ada tangis
setiap satunya bermakna
buat insan sedaif aku

Pernah aku tersasar jauh
menyelusuri liku-liku gelap
sehalus cahaya tak ku temui
namun,
kerana Ar-Rahman,
belasNya, kasihNya padaku
ku dengar sayup suara memanggil namaku
menarik ku semula
balik ke pangkal jalan
jalan menuju keredhaan Ilalhi
terima kasih, Ya Rabb
atas kesempatan itu.

Aku tahu dan sedar,
bahwa imanku ibarat air laut
ada pasang dan surutnya..

Tapi,
Kau pastikan aku tak pernah jauh dariMu
Kau dekatkan aku dengan mereka yang sentiasa mencintaiMu
membuatkan aku tertunduk malu
muhasabah semula diri ini.

Sewajarnya aku bersyukur
atas apa jua dugaan yang hinggap pada diriku,
tanda ingatanMu khusus untuk diriku
kerna Kau berfirman,
"Apakah manusia mengira bahwa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, 'kami telah beriman' dan mereka tidak diuji?" Al-Ankabut 29: 2

Palmy

27-28.03.2010

27.03.2010
Event: Festival of Culture
Organizer: Palmerston North City Council
Venue: The Square
Time: 9.00am -5.00 pm
This is the time of the year, where people from all parts of the world in Palmy gathered and displayed their culture. Variety of food sold; people wearing their best and colourful traditional clothes; dancers danced to the musics etc. Many stalls were up promoting their own countries' uniqueness :) Well, for MUMSA, this year happened to be its first time performing in FoC. Cool!!Well, if we have more people and sponsors, we can work together with the Malaysian Manawatu Group/ Club and set up good team work in promoting our beloved country. Maybe we could have 2 booth, 1 selling food and besides it having multimedia stuffs showing our beautiful country, where Malaysia is in the world's map (I bet not many know where Malaysia is exactly!), display the clothes, play our songs, the dances, the games..many other things can be included..easy said than done..but hey, if we never do it, we never know how it will turn up! it's all about teamwork, it's all about sincerity, it's all about love and passion..we are the little ambassador here. Show them what we got! Overall, for me, this year's was much better than last year.

28.03.2010
Event: Farmer's day
Location: Dairy farm in Woodville
Time: 9.00-11.30 am
A sudden decision to go to Woodville after Dennis called me that morning postponing my trip to Mana Island due to bad weather. Went there with KShikin and daughters and KFatan :) It's been awhile since I last visit to any farm. Felt good after visiting this place. Refreshed my knowledge on dairy cattle nutrition (I forgotten most of this part, I tk minat, huhu), the biology part, the milk science topic (well I got to answer most of his Q, which is satisfying!!) I was very impressed to see the technology they implement in their farm. From irrigation system, to calculating the dry matter of the grass, the 7 minutes moving milking parlor, the device they have in the collecting tank; siap ada GPS nk cari shortcut to get to a farm. The driver is well taught on how to use a device used to check for the milk whether it can be mixed to another bigger tank in factory or not. They check for the protein, water, fat, somatic cell count. SCC mesti lower or within normal range kalau tinggi maksudnye ada jangkitan lah pd mana2 cow di farm tu. The farmer showed us his silage, ah, saya rindu sungguh bau silage yg manis :D the cows there, were all big and healthy! Friesien Holstein breed.